On January 13th I wrote in my journal, “During worship between songs yesterday the worship leader said, ‘Your pursuit of me sustains me’. As I pondered that thought yesterday I realized that while your pursuit can be painful it is what breaths life into my soul. It is what communicates to me your love. It makes me weak in the knees and humbles me that your love desires, wants, and goes after a sinner, imperfect, selfish, lamenting person like me. And you are not just doing it now. I can look back on my life and see Your pursuit of me my whole life.”
When you look at the story of Jonah in the bible we immediately think of the big whale. And that fish is an important part of the story! But it’s not the whole story. Jonah is a book about God’s pursuit. Let’s look at it:
God gave Jonah an assignment and Jonah fled
God sent a storm
God sent a whale
God sent a plant
God sent a worm
God sent the wind
If you look at all these things separately it would be negative, positive, positive, negative, negative. It would seem as if God only showed up in the positive, but we can see in the story that no matter how much Jonah departs, gets angry, or runs from God – God keeps pursuit of him. God’s grace is in all the ways He pursues us. His pursuit is for us to learn about our sin, have a greater need for his grace, trust/rely on Him more, and become better imitators of Christ.
And at the first of the year Nate started reading the book of Isaiah. We laugh at home because when you open his bible almost every single word is underlined. God spoke into the deep corners of Nate’s heart with those words. God breathed courage into Nate where there was so much fear. He clung to Isaiah 43:18-19, “Remember not the former things, nor consider the things of old. Behold, I am doing a new thing; now it springs forth, do you not perceive it? I will make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.”
Over those past few months Nate apply for EVERYTHING and ANYTHING that came his way. Countless Pharma jobs, sales roles in and outside of healthcare, and other jobs. And as humbling as it was NOT ONE of the companies called him in for an interview. I guess to say it another way, we were not being picky, God was just not opening those doors.