Over the spring months and into the summer it was very hard. We knew God was not calling Nate into a Pharma job, but we needed to provide for the family and we were trying to be patient and listen to God. I wrote in my update to friends that were praying for us: the last months we have walked days that mirrored the days of Elijah in 1 Kings 19:4-9: “while he himself fled a day’s journey into the wilderness. He came to a broom bush, sat down under it and prayed that he might die. “I have had enough, Lord,” he said. “Take my life; I am no better than my ancestors.” Then he lay down under the bush and fell asleep. All at once an angel touched him and said, “Get up and eat.” He looked around, and there by his head was some bread baked over hot coals, and a jar of water. He ate and drank and then lay down again. The angel of the Lord came back a second time and touched him and said, “Get up and eat, for the journey is too much for you.” So he got up and ate and drank. Strengthened by that food, he traveled forty days and forty nights until he reached Horeb, the mountain of God. There he went into a cave and spent the night. And the word of the Lord came to him”
God never stopped pursuing Elijah, nor did He leave him desolated. On the days that I am at my end He always sends an angel. He has given us provision again and again to travel another forty days and forty nights (I will never again see an envelope in the same way). And on the days where it is easier to hide under my broom bush than to face the enemy he always calls out my name.
As God provided a cloud of dust during the day and a pillar of fire at night for the Israelites to follow so too do we follow our God. So as of Wednesday, June 18th we are confirmed that our next forty days and nights of travel is for Nate to pursue song writing full time and work hard at selling compound prescriptions to pay the bills. Our faith these past few days has been realizing that sometimes you have to close doors in order to walk through others. Our travel is not over, we feel affirmed that we have many more days and nights of travels ahead, but we are thankful for God’s undeserving provision and joyful at the hope He brings.
During my time with the Lord on Friday the 20th He brought this prayer to mind, “Please give Nate courage like a lion, eyes that are laser focused on Your will, and passion that out runs his fear.”
We feel like God brought us out of Egypt. We traveled for many months and our sandals have been weary on our feet. And we know that we are not at the promise land yet, but we are at a place where God has called us to pop our tent. Not build a house, but pop a tent. Just like it tells us in Numbers 9:15-23 sometimes the Israelites would be in camp for an evening, a week, several months, or a year. We don’t know how long we will be in our tent, but we know we are where God has us.
We are also praying Malachi 3:10 as He brought me to this word. “Bring the whole tithe into the storehouse, that there may be food in my house. Test me in this,” says the Lord Almighty, “and see if I will not throw open the floodgates of heaven and pour out so much blessing that there will not be room enough to store it.”
God is still writing our journey and we wait with great anticipation on our future!